10/10/2014 I wouldn’t know how

Maybe it’s better this way
You’re distant and unknown to me
Because I wouldn’t know
How to love you anyway

I don’t know what I’m afraid of
Is it love?
Or is it the thought of losing someone again?
Maybe even both

Maybe it’s better this way
You don’t really know much about me
Because I wouldn’t know
How to express myself to you anyway

I don’t know if I’ll ever get past
The point of being afraid
Maybe this is how it’s supposed to be
Maybe it’s for the best

10/3/2014 We shouldn’t have waited

If I am to die today
The thing I’d regret the most
Is not taking a chance on you
And letting you go just like that

There were so many times
We could’ve been
We could’ve had
The love we’ve been waiting for

Instead, I sat there quietly
Waiting for you to make a sound
You, waiting for me
To give even a little smile

We could’ve had so much time
To paint the skies a better shade of blue
We could’ve been happy together
Even to just sit beside each other quietly

Instead, we chose to look for signs
And kept waiting for the right moment
And we realized far too late
We could’ve made it

I will carry the thought of what we could’ve been
All the way to my dying moment
I will always think about what should’ve been
As I look at you, walking away from me, walking away from you

9/3/2014 All I ever cared about was you

Some things we do
Some things we don’t
Some things we wish we did
Some things we wish we never did

Of all the things I wish I could undo
Of all the things that I regret
Knowing you
Loving you

I’d like to think I’m tolerable
Like when it came to knowing you
And being hurt so many times
I let that go unsaid

But when it came to loving you
No matter what, that is
It was no longer pain, it was like hell
It was like losing a part of yourself

It was losing the capability to reason when it came to you
It was losing the will to fight the feeling of falling
It was losing the instinct to look out for yourself
Because frankly, all I ever cared about was you

I used to love things that remind me of you

6/3/2014

The simplest things used to remind me of you
Like somehow I see a piece of you in everything
And I used to like that
Because then I wouldn’t go a day without thinking of you
I don’t like it anymore
Because now all it does is remind me of the person I’ve been trying hard to forget

(P.S. sorry for not being able to write here. A lot of things has been happening lately and I barely have time to write something. Hopefully soon Ill be able to write/post everyday again. Also, thank you all for following me. It really means a lot to me. <3)

You are written all over this city

4/5/2014

You are written all over this city
You are in the tall buildings and revolving doors
You are in the nooks and crannies of old houses
You are in the sky, in the trees, in the stars
You are the coldness of the night and the warmth of the sun
You are in the air in my lungs and the blood in my veins
You are the sadness in my heart
This city is no place for me